breakthrough

based on my research, making is hard to start, but once started, it:

• is fun
• creates confidence
• encourages mindfulness
• imparts satisfaction and pride
• engages others

So why don't I create something which helps people MAKE and reframe their identity into one who makes: a MAKER?


But people already make, everyone is a maker, just not everyone considers themselves a maker so they can't reap the benefits of making...so what makes someone a Maker?

• someone who transforms something into something else, typically creating value in the process
  
• could be cooking, art, craft, writing, blogging, tweeting, ANYTHING!!
• not all types of making are equal in value, but most types of making have similar benefits and processes

If I were able to create a product, service or policy which redefined "making" and made almost any type of creative expression a legitimate, beneficial thing to make, people would therefore feel more satisfied, and stop feeling "ex-maker guilt" (if applicable).
 
Ha...new project title:

MAKINGMAKERS

white paper challenge: nicole

the white paper challenge

I created this experiment to see how people felt about making.

1. find a sheet of regular copier/printer paper (8.5" x 11" white paper)
2. set a timer for 10 minutes
3. take your sheet of white paper and make something with it! You can use whatever tools you have on hand to do something, and create whatever you would like. Transform the piece of paper into anything...it could be a 3D form like origami or a 2D form like a doodle, or even confetti--basically anything else you can think of. The only requirement is that you make "something" with this piece of paper by the time the timer goes off (please only work on this for 10 minutes, including any time you spend planning what you are going to make)
4. Take a picture (any resolution will work) of what you made
5. After completing the steps above, please respond to the survey found here

Main Research Findings

• Making is a Choice
• Making "says" something
• making is not a solitary act--requires feedback and support; commonly is created as a gift
• People make excuses about making (or not making)
• Making is an emotional topic: it is not just about creating something with your hands
• Getting started is hard
• making requires space: mental and physical
• making requires time: making time to make
• making affects confidence
• there are many misconceptions on making, creativity and value
  

IDI #3: Ashley Frazier

Ashley Frazier

Creative Director & User Interface Designer
Masters in Interior Design
"Ex-maker" (of art: printmaking, painting)

without feedback, i'd be happy, but it makes it better to get another level of commentary

i feel so bad about it...i spent so much time on art making. I liked having a way to express myself, but now that i don't do that anymore, it's kind of like if i went to law school and never practiced law...not that i am a lawyer-level artist

Question 1: How are you creative?

•  i'm creative when it comes to problem solving.
• i'm good at coming up with new ways to think about something or solve a problem
•  i am most creative when a current situation makes me have to make a decision--different from making a painting
• problem solving can still work in art--web design, interior design

Question 2: What motivates you to make?

• when i come across something i feel needs to be done better or in a more visually appealing way
• problem i come across--what's a more interesting way to solve it ?
• most problem solving has a visual output
• hard to separate it from web design
• helping people be creative about their process---sometimes people define their process by predetermined limitations/barriers, i like helping people see what it would be like without limitations...a lot of it ends up as a visual representation
• ART
• a grade at the end of the semester, inspired by things going on in my life
• i never felt like i had deep meaning to things like other artists had
• senior project-study of barbie's-pop-culture, easily relatable to sorority people, stereotypes, confirming to ideals, etc--she wanted to prove that she was not a typical art student--rebelling against what people thought of me (sorority sisters view of an artist, art majors view of a sorority sister)
• typical art students have deep-seeded angst, and something important to say--she didn't have that....the work she wanted to do was seen as superficial, happy work
• art  should make me feel something--but it doesn't have to be this really deep reaction

Question 3: Can you describe the last time you made something? How did you feel? Where were you?

• hmmm...the last time without a computer was in my undergrad. which is really sad...i can't think of anything since undergrad
• i really enjoyed the process of printmaking--layering papers and inks
• subtractive woodcut process--she really liked it
• it was also scary, since you had a limited number of prints to work on
• the fear that it might not come you exactly as you had planned.
• conceptualize your ideas, break it down into little steps
• most of the time it turned out better since it wasn't what you were expecting....
• you have vision for the piece, but it has a life of it's own but it ends up being better because of that

Question 4: How do you feel before you make something? While you are making something? After you are done?

• excited about the process and the ideas that i had
• there'd be tension during the process
• at the end, i'd feel proud of what i had accomplished
• that i had been able to get what i conceptualized out of my head and onto paper
• i enjoy getting feedback---having gone to art school, i do really well with constructive criticism--what i can do to improve, take it further
• without feedback, i'd be happy, but it makes it better to get another level of commentary

Question 5: Are there any particular parts of the creative process that are challenging for you? Any parts that are easy?

• challenging: getting started on something that you have some instruction on what the end output will be, but how to translate that into something visual becomes difficult
• especially when there are constraints(like from a client)
•  most of the time when someone asks you to do something, they can't do it themselves, so how can you turn it into something they like

Question 6: Are there any colors, smells, sounds, or tastes you associate with making things?

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Question 7: Is there a particular space (mental or environmental) where you feel more comfortable making things? What is this place like?

•  yeah, i don't know, i generally tend to ...
• i am a procrastinator even if i am wanting to do it
• put some music on so i can really get in a motivated working mood
• upbeat music i can hum to
• i'll generally set my computer or work stuff up at a table, with a chair (not couch with TV)
• if something isn't too creative, i'll sit in front of the tv

Question 8: Is there a particular space (mental or environmental) that holds you back from expressing yourself creatively? What is this place like?

• in theory, i'd like to get back into it. before i start something, i need to make sure my space is ready for it, i'd want to clean everything up, set up the space, etc. i really want to dust right now...the idea of painting with a dusty house does not appeal to me in case dust gets in the paint
• i have "creative procrastination with a touch of OCD...."

Question 9: How do you make a space your own?

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Question 10: How does a personal, designated space affect your creative experience?

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Open Conversation

• I don't make art any more because i haven't really set up a space where i can do things, i don't have a press...i haven't been inspired to buy all the supplies i need
• painting on a pre-made canvas isn't appealing--i want to stretch it, gesso it, etc.
• i get really into something that by the time it's finally done, i am ready to move on
• i did painting for so long that i don't want to do it anymore
• i haven't found time--part laziness
• i haven't felt inspired--there's nothing I can think of that I've seen and said "i want to paint that"!
• i put all these ridiculous restrictions on myself, but i want to have a space to do it
•  i feel so bad about it...i spent so much time on art making. I liked having a way to express myself, but now that i don't do that anymore, it's kind of like if i went to law school and never practiced law...not that i am a lawyer-level artist
• everyone who goes to art school is not an awesome artist
• it seems sad to devote all this time to something
• it's not completely true i don't act creatively, i just have a different outlet now
• certain level of responsibility when you make something
• when you are doing it as a job, is there the same level of responsibility
• if you are doing it on your own, it's different than creating creative work--at work you are creative within restraints, but it's not the same as a blank canvas/paper in front of you
• "i feel i have to put so much time in creative stuff, but i could do something quick like sketching a bit every day"

IDI #2: Kristina Ho

Kristina Ho
account executive at a marketing firm
college art major
ex-maker (printmaking)

my art is so thought and process oriented...(photo-based subtractive prints) that i need to think about everything ahead of time. i already have a concept, a composition (in the photo) and I have a basic idea of how it will look in the end.

I'm not as creative as I used to be, because I am consumed with work. To get back into making, I'd need the structure of a class and the ability to meet with my peers to discuss it.

I think a lot of the reasons why I don't make art is mental--I am afraid to explore the possibilities. I use time and not being able to find the space to do it as an excuse. If i took the time, I could rent studio space or make stuff at home...it's all in my head

it's satisfying to be done [making something], but also intimidating because you don't know what someone else's reaction will be. Does someone else understand or appreciate it? If you're the only one that gets it, it's not worthwhile...I don't ever make things just for myself.

Question 1: How are you creative?

• "I don't think I am anymore."
• I'm not as creative as I used to be, because I am consumed with work (mostly project management)
• my creative outlet is my blog, but I'm not sure who reads it and who my audience is
  
• (me: so why do you say you aren't creative?) I associate creative with art and process oriented rather than a blog, for example...making something has a beginning, middle or end, and takes time.
• for example, my blog is instantaneous, not as process driven, so it's not really that creative
  

Question 2: What motivates you to make?

• or printmaking: deconstructed photos, made you think differently about a moment
• thought out process, based on color and conscious decisions
• her photography-captures a moment of time
• self-motivation now--i love art, i have affinity for it
• now i don't do it because i don't have time, i have lost "my voice", i feel so distanced from it<--i could have time. i feel so removed, i don't know where to begin. to get back into making, i'd need the structure of a class and meet with my peers to discuss it
• i have thoughts about joining a class
• in school, i liked the sense of community because without enough self-motivation, you can talk to other people who are making stuff and get support.
• I'd love to be doing printmaking (wood blocks and screen-printing) but i can't do that at home
• I haven't drawn or doodled to help relax in a long time
  
• I've lost confidence in myself as an artist

Question 3. Can you describe the last time you made something? How did you feel? Where were you?

• last time she made something: she made dinner for her friend Emmy. an appetizer, main course, extravangant meal, planned the menu, went shopping, made it on her own terms
• i enjoy the art of cooking
• instant gratification
• happy when she was cooking--it's something i enjoy and you can save some money and make something new

Question 4. How do you feel before you make something? While you are making something? After you are done?

• before: organized, knew what she needed to do, working on a schedule for myself, what made the most sense--similar to my art making process
• lots of heavy thinking beforehand--i over-think everything in my life
• i get a little stressed, worrying i had not planned out everything
• during: she has pre-planned enough to solve any problems she encountered
• after: satisfying exciting when you take the first bite...worrying about scheduling timing, but when it's all done, she feels relieved
• with cooking it's all about timing...in the beginnning, it's all about her, in the end it's for others
• she doesn't think she ever makes stuff just for herself
• she gets blank canvas syndrome..."in lithography, you're given a blank stone. I don't know what I'm going to draw."

Question 5: Are there any particular parts of the creative process that are challenging for you? Any parts that are easy?

• challenging parts: it's satisfying to be done, but also intimidating because you don't know what someone else's reaction to it is. does someone else understand or appreciate it? if you're the only one that gets it, it's not worthwhile.
• easy parts: she does a lot of planning and process so actually making something is somewhat easy
  

Question 6: Are there any colors, smells, sounds, or tastes you associate with making things?

• yellow oranges--either gray scale or a yellow-orange-red-brown
• garlic-with cooking
• woodblock-wood has a smell, ink, solvent, etc
• if i were in the room and i smelled orange solvent or ink, i'd probably feel inspired to make a print, reminds me "remember when you made that thing..."

Question 7: Is there a particular space (mental or environmental) where you feel more comfortable making things? What is this place like?

• i don't know...at this point, since i haven't made anything, maybe my comfort zone would be a private place
• i'm not ready to share what I'm working on with people at this point
• getting started i'd be alone--the prvacy of my own home
• i wish i had access to a [printing] press in my home

Question 8: Is there a particular space (mental or environmental) that holds you back from expressing yourself creatively? What is this place like?

• i think a lot of the reasons why i don't make art is mental--i am afraid to explore the possibilities
• i use the whole excuse of time and not being able to find the space to do it as an excuse
• if i took the time, i could rent studio space or make stuff at home...it's all in my head

Question 9: How do you make a space your own?

• I try to infuse a splash of color--a brighter color. at my desk or in my home i put stuff up that has personal significance to me
• what speaks to me aesthetically, pretty or nice
• when you get a new job, you decorate your cube to make it reflective of you and comfortable

Question 10: How does a personal, designated space affect your creative experience?

• i guess....you make the space into an area in which you want to create something, or spend time in it
• you make it your own to fit what your needs are in the moment.

IDI #1: Miriam Wild-Smith

Miriam Wild-Smith
CCA Graduate
writer for AAA's Via magazine
writer for comedy troupe "Killing My Lobster"

getting started is the worst possible thing in the world for me. In any case it's always a blank piece of paper--writing or art

I was in a long term relationship with art, and was dumped after I graduated from school [because finding a job as a "professional artist" didn't work for her]

I'm excited about having more space to do work. I used to be afraid about messing stuff up [in her old living space]--I like segregating work space and home space

I interviewed Miriam Wild-Smith on Saturday, September 12. She was my first interview, and I only had a loose interview guide, so the conversation was very organic.

Question 1: How are you creative?

• she's been drawing since she was like 4....and writing since the same age time...not the best writer when she was little
• She doesn't draw as much as she used to ...
• "when i had the time..."
• "i love to make...cards and stuff for people"

Question 2: why don't you draw as much as you used to?

• got burnt out,
• her life was painting and drawing.
• when she graduated, she just stopped.
• waited too long to start up again, not incorporated anymore
• transitioned from art to writing

Question 3: how is writing similar to art?

• it's a part of me that other people see--and chose to see. people are interested in seeing it. it speaks to them in the same way as art. ppl can appreciate it
• writing for the stage is a lot like art. visual art is a presentation.
• some times she forgets about her creations--she picked up a magazine and saw that she had an article inside. The article was a 2 page spread w/images, her name.

Question 4: why do you create stuff?

• bragging rights, showing off --> i am a pretty quiet person...but making stuff gives her confidence. she knows she's good--was she told by people or is she actually good? enough positive reinforcement to be a confidence builder
• passive way to show off...
• it's a lot of fun
• gives a sense of accomplishment
• she does it for other people too...what they appreciate...how much she can capture an image. she loves doing portraits
• does more for other people--she feels satisfaction when she hears people laugh at her writing

Question 5: when was the last time you made something?

• she can't really recall the last time she drew something...
• sense of accomplishment, i'm doing this, no one else is doing this
• making a frittata-for myself, for greg, it's tasty, delicious, great when its finished. pulling raw ingredients together and making something new
• last piece-she was worried about doing it
• she didn't know the people, they paid for it.
• she tried really hard
• happy when it's done

Question 6: what's the hardest part of making something?

• getting started is the worst possible thing in the world for me. in any case it's always a blank piece of paper--writing or art
• nothing is there
• why can't i just be done? she knows it will end
• anticipation is the worse part about...knowing how it will turn out
• hard time starting things
  
• there's a tipping point :she'll get an idea in her head, she'll go over it in her head, she can picture all these parts of it, it sounds fun. if she doesn't get started at the exact moment she gets excited about it, she no longer wants to do it
• trouble starting things--associates both writing and art with work. she used to draw for leisure..
• doing art for work has transitioned it from a hobby to a "have to do"
• she doesn't think she'll ever want to stop writing. is writing her new, fun fling.
• starting things: mental blocks, fear of something not turning out, fear of failure "what if i start on this and it doesn't turn out the way i envision it in my head" which is one of the main things that holds people back, creatively.
• fear that something won't turn out as expected--what if other people don't like it.
• i do things for myself, but secretly I want other ppl to like it
• time--i get so absorbed into things i start working on, i need to set aside huge blocks of time to do things...4 hours have gone by. so why bother getting started if i need hours
• half way through it
• she loves it, even when she gets started. the act of taking my hand and making it move and having something coming out of it "my energy is creating this"
• identifies with a pen, not a keyboard
• when she's done: super accomplished, happy
• she never stops until she is pleased with it--she either gives up completely, or carries through to the end.
• bits and pieces of the making process can get scary and frustrating...i'm in control because I know that i am.
• she hasn't been motivated at all, since she graduated from college, to do art work except for a sketchbook of dreams (she's interested in her own subconscious and drawing things from her imagination). relaxing and fun. it was my own time, not anyone else's
• comedy writing- for other people and making herself laugh

Question 7: what type of sensory experience do you associate with making something?

• dehydration and discomfort-she'll sit somewhere and ignore that she has to start something "i'm thirsty, but if i get up, that means I have to start it"
• sound: greg tells her to do it
• dreams lead her to draw
• food- good, always
• the smell of bean and cheese burritos w/jalapenos and spinach tortillas make her think of her illustration class
• omelettes make her think of her thesis class
• music- if she doesn't have good music, she can't do anything
• "lord of the rings got me through college"- would play in the background, would use movie length to track her time
• sounds-get her going and motivated for art, giver her something to focus on instead of the blank thing in front of her--also inspiring since it's something someone else created. catchy, entertaining
• writing-she needs total silence. no music in the background

End of the Interview...Basic Conversation

• she feels bad that she stopped...people ask her when will she start again
• disenchanted and burnt out
• when she was younger, she was told that she was good at art--but nothing else. they could see she was good at it, she was told to go into art--take the talent and turn it into a money making thing,
• she thought that she could be a full time artist, doing what she liked to do for work. she wanted to be an animator at disney. you have to start off as an inker, ppl don't get paid, then computers took over. in college she thought she should do illustrations because she also likes writing...but she felt like she didn't know how to get a job. She had no idea how to get a paying job as an artist. 4 hours of a biz class
• got out of school and there were no jobs, she didn't know what an art job even was--how did she think she'd get a job? had vague ideas of what it meant to be a professional artist
• associates art with disappointment. a big let down for her. every time she paints or draws she thinks of it as an example of how the world let her down!
• she knows she could still do it if she wanted to. she is still an artist
• in a long term relationship with art, was dumped after she graduated from school
• still fantasizes about going to blick, getting a big canvas, going to town--she makes lots of stupid excuses to herself. a money thing as well--her parents would pay for her art supplies and now she has to pay for them and it's less appealing -- bs excuses (no money, no time, no car) BUT if she had the drive and motivation she could do it right now...she has other priorities now--house, running, etc.
• she used to not exercise, now priorities have shifted
• she is excited about having more space to do work. she used to be afraid about messing stuff up--she likes segregating work space and home space
• she hopes to use the downstairs office to paint and stuff

group brainstorm

I went to a great group brainstorming session last night and got some feedback on my ideas.

I talked about anxiety like goldilocks--too little anxiety, you lack motivation, too much, you are debilitated....how do you capture the "just right" amount. Like what if procrastinators were able to take a pill that made them more anxious (opposite of an anti-anxiety drug). After blabbering on for a few minutes, people brought up this interesting stuff to investigate:

• tracking the physical response to anxiety; biorhythyms


• tracking anxiety/creativity over time


• elizabeth gilbert-TED talk-->the muse, clearing a space for your creative genie...if your half shows up, eventually the genie will come...


• creative habit--decrease anxiety?


• parallels with sports therapy...training to click into a mode (like tossing a ball a certain amount of times to get "in the zone")....ritual


• how has anxiety changed over time?


• can your mind be tricked...training wheels? adrenaline playing a role.

Then I talked about the scenario where people transform anxiety/lack of confidence into creative empowerment while Painting Pottery. I got some interesting feedback on this topic as well:

• highly related to a lack of confidence. perhaps the goal is to "engage your doubter..."


• empowerment comes from letting go of control...


• worrying through it, groan zone


• research recreational drugs in creativity


• EST transformational groups

A lot to think about, moving forward.

anxiety research

For SmallSteps, I did a lot of anxiety research. Here are some of my notes from that project...


"Anxiety Disorders Association of America"

• Anxiety disorders are the most common mental illness in the U.S., affecting 40 million adults in the United States age 18 and older (18.1% of U.S. population).


• Anxiety disorders cost the U.S. more than $42 billion a year, almost one-third of the country's $148 billion total mental health bill

"National Institute of Mental Health"
"Anxiety Disorders PDF"

Anxiety is a normal reaction to stress...In general, it helps one cope. But when anxiety becomes an excessive, irrational dread of everyday situations, it has become a disabling disorder. Each anxiety disorder has different symptoms,
but all the symptoms cluster around excessive, irrational fear and dread.

5 Main Types of Anxiety Disorders:

1. Generalized Anxiety Disorder




• can't seem to shake their concerns.


• worries are accompanied by physical symptoms, especially fatigue, headaches, muscle tension, muscle aches, difficulty swallowing, trembling, twitching, irritability, sweating, and hot flashes.




2. Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder




• characterized by recurrent, unwanted thoughts (obsessions) and/or repetitive behaviors (compulsions).


• persistent, unwelcome thoughts or images, or the urgent need to engage in certain rituals...They may be filled with doubt and feel the need to check things repeatedly.





3. Panic Disorder




• characterized by unexpected and repeated episodes of intense fear


• accompanied by physical symptoms that may include chest pain, heart palpitations, shortness of breath, dizziness, or abdominal distress.




4. Post Traumatic Stress Disorder




• develops after exposure to a terrifying event or ordeal in which grave physical harm occurred or was threatened


• persistent frightening thoughts and memories of an ordeal


• emotional numbness, sleep problems, feel detached or numb, or be easily startled




5. Social Phobia




• can be limited to only one type of situation or almost anytime someone is around other people.


• persistent, intense, and chronic fear of being watched and judged by others and being embarrassed or humiliated by their own actions.


• severe fear can interfere with work or school, and other ordinary activities.


• blushing, profuse sweating, trembling, nausea, and difficulty talking.

Treatment of Anxiety Disorders

• "How to Get Help for Anxiety Disorders"
  
  "Treatment of Anxiety Disorders"


• Anxiety disorders are treated with medication, specific types of psychotherapy, or both


• Medication will not cure anxiety disorders, but it can keep them under control while the person receives psychotherapy


• Sometimes people must try several different treatments or combinations of treatment before they find the one that works for them.


• The practitioners who are most helpful with anxiety disorders are those who have training in cognitive-behavioral therapy and/or behavioral therapy, and who are open to using medication if it is needed.


• Cognitive-Behavioral Therapy...helps people change the thinking patterns that support their fears, and the behavioral part helps people change the way they react to anxiety-provoking situations.


• Exposure-based behavioral therapy has been used for many years to treat specific phobias. The person gradually encounters the object or situation that is feared, perhaps at first only through pictures or tapes, then later face-to-face. Often the therapist will accompany the person to a feared situation to provide support and guidance.


• Many people benefit from joining a self-help or support group and sharing their problems and achievements with others. Internet chat rooms can also be useful in this regard, but any advice received over the Internet should be used with caution


• Talking with a trusted friend or member of the clergy can also provide support, but it is not a substitute for care from a mental health professional.

Determining if you have an anxiety disorder

The Anxiety Disorders Association of America has a bunch of tests you can take to begin the diagnosis process, including the "Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder (OCD) Self-Test" :

• Do you have unwanted ideas, images, or impulses that seem silly, nasty, or horrible?


• Do you worry excessively about dirt, germs, or chemicals?


• Do you keep many useless things because you feel that you can't throw them away?